KALUMBAYAN NI MARE. Bipolar si Mare.

Hindi naman ikaw ang mundo ko, pero bakit sa iyo pilit ito'y umiikot?

Hindi rin naman ikaw ang makakatuluyan ko, pero bakit umaasa pa rin ako?

Hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit ito'y dapat mangyari. Naaning kasi ako e. Siguro, na-misread ko yung mga signals at kung ano man yun. Siguro din, masyado ko lang pinansin yung nararamdaman ko at hindi yung mga nangyayari. Siguro din na, akala ko yung mga nangyayari ganun na lang hanggang sa huli. Pero hindi pala, ganun-g

anun na lang pala siya natatapos. Isang iglap, wala na ang lahat. Wala man lang warning na matatapos na, wala naman ring sagot kung bakit wala na.

Ang hirap din mangapa kung ano dapat ang madama. Hindi mo alam kung, ikaw lang ba ang may problema o baka meron din siya. Lalo na yung part na naghihintay ka. Bakit ka nga ba naghihintay? Pinaghintay ka ba niya? Diba hindi naman? Kaso matik na yun e. Once na may naramdaman ka, parang ayaw mo na siya pakawalan, parang ayaw mo na siya kalimutan. Ano ba ang mahirap inintindihin sa: WALA YUN. WALA NAMAN TALAGA. WALANG WALA? Hindi ba, wala? Simple. Pinapalaki mo lang e.

Salita naman ako ng salita. "Oo na, foforget ko na siya. Promise." Kaso, marinig mo lang pangalan niya, mapapalingon ka na e. Maiisip mo na lahat ng bagay na nangyari e. Nilagyan mo nga ng boundary pero bakit tume-trespass ka pa rin? Siya

lang ba ang mundo mo? Hindi naman 'diba? Kaya please lang? Tama na.

Siyempre, hindi naman magiging ganito ang tao kung walang cause. Kung walang cause - walang effect. SIMPLE. Wala akong sinisisi. Naiinis lang ako kasi bakit ganito yung nararamdaman ko, eh hindi naman nararapat. Siya lang naman yun e. What's so special about the person? Binigyan ka ba niya ng something? - Oo. Minahal ka ba niya? - Hindi. Pinakilig ka ba niya? - Oo. Nag-I love you ba siya? - Oo. Seryoso ba siya? - Malay ko. Nak ng. Pakalabo.

Tas malalaman mo na lang, may bago na. Wow. Paka bilis naman. Parang araw sa isang linggo, pagdating ng -ber months, bumibilis na ang takbo ng panahon. Hindi mo na mahahabol, masyado nang mabilis. Eh bakit ka pa rin nalulungkot? Kasi, na-fall ka, ganon? - Hinde. Eh bakit? Wala lang? Trip mo lang? Hindi ka naman niya iniisip eh.

Bakit mo siya iisipin? Diba? - May point ka rin 'jan.

Bakit hindi mo tanungin yung tao? - Hindi rin naman niya sasabihin. Unfair talaga ng buhay 'noh? Finix niya yung sira mong damdamin, tas sa huli, siya rin sisira. Ampupuness lang diba? Nakakasama lang ng loob. Sabi sabi pa sila na hindi sila malandi, pero oo naman pala. POINT MO?

HINDI KO GETS.

NALALABUAN AKO.

PAKILINAW, PWEDE?

BAKIT GANITO?

BIGYAN MO NAMAN AKO NG SAGOT.

Tama na. Kahit ano pang isipin mo, mali ka. Mali rin ako. Ang mali ko lang, siguro, nagkagusto ako. Nakakapang-sisi. You proved me all wrong. Dami mong sinabi, pero alin dun ang totoo? Parang wala naman.

Dami kong sinabi, pero lahat ng ito. Psh lang sa inyo. Pakelam niyo? Blog ko 'to eh. Bakit niyo binabasa? May advice rin ba kayo? Nakakarelate rin ba kayo? O baka naman, tinatamaan ka na?

Hirap din magpretend na

okay ka, kahit hindi. Shet.

You're the reason why...

Be honest, do you miss anyone?

I always miss everyone, but if I should miss the guy, then I should deny that I do.

Is the last person that texted you attractive?

My brother? Why, yes. We share the same blood.

Anything bothering you at the moment?

I wanna tell you, but I prefer not to.

Who was the last person in your bedroom?

The house helper and myself.

Are you afraid to tell your true feelings?

It depends with whom I am speaking.

When with my closest friends: I don't have the fear of splurging all the words full of emotion.

With 'that' person: I guess, I'm pretty scared to admit the truth.

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?

Hmmm. Can't recall anything. July wuz the best month so far.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?

Yes. Now, should I get some sleep now?

Who did you spend most of your time with yesterday evening/night?

My family.

Is there someone you’d be glad if you never saw them again?

There are some.

Are you annoyed at one of your friends right now?

Nope.

Are you sick right now?

I just got well.

Do you have your tongue pierced?

Uh, nope.

What color eyes do you prefer on the opposite sex?

Blue? #fantasies

Brown/Black #reality

This time next week, what will you be doing?

Sit here on my desk and figure out what to do.

Has anyone told you that you’ve changed recently?

No, because I haven’t changed at all.

Do you prefer hot weather or cold weather?

Hot weather.

Is there someone you want to fix things with?

Not necessarily fix things, just make them better and make our relationship stronger. That is if we ever had a relationship.

Are your parents strict?
Strict? No, not really. They love me so, yeah they're strict. #somalabo

Eaten in a revolving restaurant?

HAHAHAHA. I would puke. No.

Do you buy more things online or in stores?

In stores. Never tried buying things online though.

Will you be in a relationship next month?

I try not to think about it.

What was the latest you’ve stayed up in the past week?

2:30am. I have not been staying up late for more than that because there's no more reason to not to.

Who was the last person you called?

According to my phone, t'was Reth.

How has this weekend been for you?

Sweet and very bipolar.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to about anything?

I used to. I could tell him absolutely everything and he would remember it. Now we don’t even talk that much anymore.

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

Completely clueless @-)

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?

Peoplewise, yes. But I would like a flat.

Have you ever fallen asleep texting someone?

Yes.

Are you a jealous person?

Yes.

Is it possible to be JUST friends with someone you wanna be with?

It would be too much torture for me. But I think I could manage it. :| :|

Favorite day of the week?

Tuesday.

What is the last thing you said out loud to someone?

BYEEEEEEE.

Were you single over last summer?

Yes.

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

None.

Have you ever pretended you were sleeping to get out of doing something?

I can't remember :| @-) Too much things happened to remember such deets.

Do you think someone likes the same person you like?

Yes.

How many kids do you want to have?

2 to 3.

Ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?

Currently am.

Who was the last person to tell you something straight up?

Hmmm. None.

Could you go a whole month without smoking a cigarette?

Yes.

Where will i find you at 10 am tomorrow?
in my bed asleep.

Is there someone who you’re attracted to?

Yes.

What are your plans for tonight?

Well it’s 1.30 in the morning, so… nothing

Will tomorrow be better than today?

Please be.

Do you think you’re wasting your time on the person you really like?

Maybe.

Personal Time

Is there any chance you will kiss the person you have feelings for?
I don't know yet.

Do any of your friends have children?
None that I know of.

What was the last thing you ate?
Chicken at El Polo Loco - SM Mall of Asia.

Did any particular thing brighten up your day today?
None.

Did your last outing involve the police?
Nope.

Did you go outside for more than thirty minutes today?
Yes. Went to Alabang, then Makati, then Manila.

How has the past week been for you?
Interesting, I guess?

Do you currently have a hickey?
No. Do you?

Did you sleep alone last night?
Yes.

Do you truly want someone dead?
No. That's mean.

Is there anywhere else you would rather be?
Kind of, yes.

Pick a word that starts with the first letter of your first name:
Casualties. #whattheheck

In the past seventy-two hours, have you been under the influence?
No.

One thing you’re looking forward to?
2nd Sem of the year. I miss school.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Yes. What a shame.

When was the last time something bothered you?
Wednesday of the week until today.

What flavor in candy is your favorite?
Cherry.

Are you a jeans and t-shirt type of person or do you prefer to dress up?
Yes.

What do you take pictures of the most?
Random shit. Any stuff I like to waste my shutter at.

What song lyrics are stuck in your head?
'Cause in my heart there's a picture of us, holding hands, making plans...

Do you like seafood or meat better?
Meat. Poor kitty. Allergic to seafood.

Do you have any jewelery on?
Yes. A ring.

How has your health been lately?
Same old.

Do you consider yourself to be healthy?
Probably. I'm still breathing normally right?

Was someone else in your room when you woke up this morning?
Yes. House helper.

Are you currently expecting a text message from someone?
Sadly, yes. :(

Are you able to grab your cell phone without moving from where you are now?
Yes.

If you’re an only child, do you wish you had any siblings?
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What flavor ice cream did you last have?
Mint Bon Bon.

Is your hair short, medium or long?
Medium. Struggling if I should cut it again or grow it longer.

What was the last television show you watched?
Master Class - Masterchef Aussie

Are you cold right now?
A little.

Do you sometimes sleep on the couch?
Yes.

Are you missing someone?
Yes.

Do you think you’re too lazy?
Sometimes I think I do.

Have you ever actually seen someone fall on a banana peel?
No. :|

Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
No, not really.

MOVIES TO WATCH

Okay, so since I love to watch movies so much.. I'm gonna download these and watch them. :>

1. August Rush
2. The Sisterhood and Traveling Pants 2
3. Cast Away
4. Batteries Not Included
5. The Brave Little Toaster
6. Camille
7. The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
8. Dreamgirls
9. The Dutchess
10. Driving Miss Daisy
11. E.T.
12. A.I.
13. Edward Scissor Hands
14. Finding Neverland
15. Forever Young
16. Forrest Gump
17. Ghost
18. Gladiator
19. Drum line
20. The Green Mile
21. Hamlet
22. Happy Feet
23. I Am Legend
24. The Iron Giant
25. The Land Before Time
26. Mask
27. Meet Joe Black
28. My Girl
29. Once Were Warriors
30. The Pianist
31. The Reader
32. Romeo and Juliet
33. Saving Private Ryan
34. Schindler's List
35. The Time Traveler's Wife
36. Titanic
37. Tristan & Isolde
38. The Truman Show
39. UP
40. Wall-E
41. He's Just Not That Into You
42. Dirty Dancing
43. 13 Going To 30
44. Clueless
45. City of Angels
46. Anywhere but Here
47. Notting Hill
48. Where The Heart Is
49. Love Actually
50. What A Girl Wants
51. 50 First Dates
52. Mean Girls
53. 27 Dresses
54. There's Something About Mary
55. The 40 -Year Old Virgin
56. The Holiday
57. The Wedding Planner
58. A Cinderella Story
59. How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days
60. Along Came Polly
61. The Break-Up
62. Wedding Crashers
63. She's The Man
64. Duplicity
65. Maid In Manhattan
66. I Know Who Killed Me
67. Teeth
68. Just My Luck
69. Confessions of A Teenage Drama Queen
70. Freaky Friday

Spooky night last night.

June 27, 2011
11:45PM

I have a serious headache today. Well, that's because, last night I had trouble sleeping. This book I've bought from the bookstore entitled: ANG MGA KAIBIGAN NI MAMA SUSAN (Mama Susan's Friends) by Bob Ong really spooked me out. I started reading this book last sunday afternoon after Church. Every word and description written there was embarked in my memory. So, I decided to sleep in my brother's bedroom because he sleeps on the floor with cushion - I won't have any fear looking under his bed because he doesn't have any. To my surprise, they sleep with the lights' turned off. Now what's even more creepy, there's a ooing sound of the wind, right outside the window, rats chewing off the roof so they're making scratching noise and a loud thud from a cat's drama in chasing the rats. I was really spooked and paranoid. I couldn't stop thinking about the book. I started imagining the ghosts there and the horror. I'm so thankful! Now that I haven't read another chapter from the book - rest assured that my sleep is going to be sweet tonight.


P.S.
It's almost 12mn and we all know creepers starts to come out by this time right? Ooohh...

The truth behind: RUGRATS

Yes. its true…

The Rugrats really were a figment of Angelica’s Imagination.

Chucky died a long time ago along with this mother, that’s why Chaz is a nervous wreck all the time.

Tommy was a stillborn, that’s why Stu is constantly in the basement making toys for the son who never had a chance to live.

The DeVilles had an abortion, Angelica couldn’t figure whether it would be a boy or a girl thus creating the twins
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As for “All Grown Up” Angelica was a bipolar schizophrenic who, as a teenager became addicted to various Narcotics, bringing her back to her childhood and thus her creations she obsessed over, because of time lapse between the present and the last time she interacted with her creations, she made them older, Angelica was constantally taking hits of acid, so she would never have to live without her creations who were her only company, in a judgemental world

Angelica’s mom actually died of a heroine overdose, Angelica was schizophrenic/bipolar because she was a crack baby, additionaly Drew in his depression married a gold digging whore, that Angelica idolized because she fooled herself into thinking it was her real mom, but always had a concept of her mom, Cynthia, and took a barbie doll, and made it after her mom’s image, wearing an unwashed oranged dress, and having jacked up hair, which is why she was so attached to it, later in life she followed in her mom footsteps w/ drugs and everything, dieing of overdose at age 13 when All Grown Up! was “canceled”

The only rugrat not to be fictional however, was unborn Tommy’s brother Dil, however Angelica didnt know the differace between Dil and her creations, Dil didnt follow her commands, after endless crying and a refusal to disapear like the others did when angelica was angry with them, she hit him. And she hit him, screaming a screaching tune, Stu ran in and pulled his neice off of his only child, but it was too late, he had a brain hemerage, which resulted in a deformation, as he grew up his damage only became more evident, by the time he was 9 in All Grown Up! He lived as an outcast, being ridiculed for his weirdness, and retardation, the immense guilt over this is what led to her drug use and is what led Angelica to un-create the rugrats breifly, until her expericance w/ hallucinogenics.

On a trip to Paris to find love, Chaz married a hooker named Kira (He was actually going to marry a differant hooker, but she just wanted him for his money), who had a daughter named Kimi that was torn from her because she was a cocaine addict (Angelica imagined her from Kira’s stories), he lost his mind after the death of his wife and was in denial that she was ever prostitue, upon return to America, Chaz and Kira married and she got her greencard, it was actually a really happy/romantic story, Kira continually stuggled with addiction, but was relatively happy w/ her life, and Chaz

Suzie was actually Angelica’s only friend, who entertained the thought of Angelica’s creations, for her, She later became a phycologist and teamed up w/ Nickelodeon to make the Rugrats! When Angelica died of drug overdose, she helped arrange her funeral, Angelica’s death was sad, because of her addiction, she was expelled from society, which lead to a break with reality, and her eventual death, she spent the last days of her life in the back of the school cafeteria, imagining friends around her, and playing with the lives of her creations.

She died March 5, 1994, tag your friends if you were throughly mindraped, this is the truth behind your childhood.

Source: Tumblr

F.Y.I.