April 30th 2011
12:22 AM

I'm lying in bed like I usually do at this time of the night, waiting 'till I fall asleep. Which is actually irritating really, counting sheeps, drinking tea or a hot milk is not really helping at all. Then there goes my brain, it is working like a regular office worker who keeps working late. I tend to think about a lot of things when I'm in my bed. Things that don't usually happen in real life. Day dreaming to be exact, but should we call it a night dreaming?

What I have been thinking about lately is: How am I supposed to cheer myself up and go on with my life carefree? I've been finding ways on how should I keep myself from all these struggles. See? I typed almost a hundred of words and my mind is wide awake. This is terrible. I found out recently that people who usually lack sleep is prone to brain tumor and cancers. I'm praying that I'm not one of them. I don't know why sleeping is my problem. Been wondering since I hit the mid-adult stage.

Well, probably because I share the same medical sickness with my Dad. Or maybe because of the internet? I don't know.

Anyway, enough of the sleep whinning. I'm really excited for tomorrow! My friend is going to be baptized! Isn't that great? :) I've been patiently waiting for this day to come forth. Just can't express how I am really feeling right now. You know? Just expecting change from me tomorrow will be a little nice. You know, getting sane and be aware of my surroundings from now on.